Tuesday 24 July 2012

Nearly Happy

Hello there, yes I am alive and I have not been abducted by aliens! It is well over a month since I last posted on a regular basis and this I am not happy about. Let me explain....

You all know that at the beginning of June I started my new job in a library. In short it is amazing, I thought maybe after a few weeks the novelty would wear off but I am still loving every minute.

I Love My Job
A 45 minute drive to work
I Love that I get to sing all the way
Story times and rhyme times too
I Love to see kids get involved
Crafty things to make and glitter everywhere
I Love that I get to act like a kid
The lovely people I have met and work with
I Love the warm welcome I have had
The understanding and encouraging boss
I Love that we are so similar
A 45 minute drive home
I Love the road that in places is cocooned by green trees
I Love my job!

Even during some recent flash floods, that made the drive home very interesting, the drive still doesn't bother me. Even when we have had unexpected staff shortages and the library has been so busy that the shelves looked to have been ransacked by ram raiders, I didn't get stressed we just dealt with things as they came along.

Today I was in charge of the summer reading challenge craft activities and got to help some lovely kids make masks in all shapes and sizes. It was like a glitter explosion, we had lions, dogs, butterflies, spiderman, batman and some amazing masquerade masks. Below is a picture of the mask a lovely little girl and her mum made for me after I had admired hers, with it's sparkly feathers and jewels it was a work of art. I love mine with pretty curled leaves and metallic markings (which don't show up well on the photo) it is very sophisticated and worthy of any masquerade ball, I just wish I had one to go to. I am tired now and still covered in glitter (it seriously gets every where doesn't it!) but I had an amazing afternoon.



Any way back to my explanation! My childhood had it's issues, my teenage years...yes well we all know those, my twenties passed by in a blur, it is only now in my thirties tat I finally feel in control of my life. My beautiful family, my amazing job, my wonderful boss, the fantastic friends I have now (not all of you I have even met in person) all add up to one nearly happy me. What is missing you ask? I know it looks like I have it all and really ought to be grateful, however in all this happiness I have let my writing and reading slip. I am annoyed with myself and I only have me to blame for this lack of motivation. I could reel off a raft of excuses like; 'it's been hard getting used to this new routine' 'my new job is physically and mentally tireing' blah blah blah! Tonight I made a promise to myself to finish catching up on the blogs I love to read and also to set myself a new writing schedule and stick to it! Maybe then I can just be happy, instead of nearly there...or will I?

Are humans destined to make sure that they are never totally happy? Does there have to always be a but?

How is everyone in our corner of the bloggy world? I have missed you all loads xxx

8 comments:

  1. We are all well, and glad to have you back! Many of us are still coming back too, I think. :)

    I'm so happy for you Sleepy Joe. Glad you're happy .. :) And your new job sounds fabulous!

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    1. Aw thanks, glad you are well and will be over to see you soon :-)

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  2. Oh good. I can check aliens off my list. With that said, how much do I love this post? Let me count the ways...

    I love your poem. I love the construction of it, as if we're driving with you and following you around and then driving home again. And I love the details. I would love your job too, me thinks, and I'm so glad you have it.

    I love the picture. That mask is awesome, for sure, and I can just imagine the glitter being everywhere. Nice.

    I love your thinking spot. I love how you led us up to the question, and then left us to ponder, even though now I want to know what you think.

    Do humans make sure they're never totally happy? I think a state of happiness is definitely a choice. I've met people who have things a whole lot worse off than me, but who are much more content and happy than I am. I've also come upon the opposite. I think regardless of how happy we are, it's important to be moving forward to some kind of goal(s). Too much movement will burn a person out, though, so I think the key is balance. Recognizing you have so much, being grateful for it, and continuing to strive for...more? Less? Just right?

    The kicker for me is that "just right" definitely depends on the day, eh? Heh. I guess for me there is always a but...

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    1. "Just right" always seems to be missing something for me. I have so much....but. Maybe one day I will learn to just be, or is it a devine way to ensure we strive to be our best???

      Way to get you thinking deep huh??

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  3. I believe if we were completely happy, then there wouldn't be anything to work for. We need that little bit of discontent to keep us striving for something more.
    (Glad you're back!)
    (And I love that you say you missed us 'loads'.)

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    1. Very true Jewels, a cosmic way to ensure we always strive to be something more!

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  4. Glad you are back and loving your job!

    I, too, need to catch up on other-blog reading. I'm falling behind again after I finally caught up last week.

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    1. Just as I think I am nearly there one of you lovely ladies goes and writes something amazing that I have to read. 'No rest for the wicked' as they say...I must have been very wicked ;-)

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