The inside of my mind looks a little like this on a daily basis, the eternal fight self doubt versus self confidence. This week I woke up to the blue skies and fluffy white, the self confidence won out (so far). I took myself off to a creative writing workshop, I wrote to prompts for only the second time since I started writing. My confidence knew no bounds, a day of never ending sunshine with not a cloud of darkness in sight, going as far as to read out to the group what I had written. Maybe some alien being inhabited my body for the afternoon, I don't know but I think I took a step closer to thinking of myself as a writer. Or maybe I still just dabble ;-)
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How are your battles raging on?
Glad the light is winning for a while. Perhaps it is the acknowledgement of the light and dark, the breezes of confidence mixed with clouds of self doubt, that define what it is to be a writer?
ReplyDeleteThe outlook tomorrow.....mostly cloudy with a chance of sun.
DeleteBeautiful. I'm so glad you went to the workshop, and that you're feeling so positive. Keep going, even through the black-moods. It seems like they add such amazing depth to your white-moods.
ReplyDeleteThat is all we can do, fight through the storms and hope there is something good to write about after ;-)
DeleteIt took me a long time to claim the title of 'writer' for myself. I felt like I had to be published, or that someone had to give me permission to use that title. Not so.
ReplyDeleteYou are a writer. Claim it proudly. If anyone says otherwise, send them to me!!
Hun, you have no idea how much that means to me.
DeleteThank you for being my C.S. Forester!
Oh, I love those inhabited by a (benevolent) alien days! They're a little too few and far between sometimes, though. I think the trick is learning to write regularly regardless of whether you're confident or doubtful--then as you build your skills, your confidence naturally starts to outweigh the doubt. I believe this wholeheartedly but I often let days or week go by without writing when in my one of my doubtful funks. It's always so much easier to give advice than to take it--maybe especially your own advice.
ReplyDeleteYou have me smiling :-) and I really needed to read this today as I am currently sinking in my own doubtful mud trap. Time to grab to rescue rope I think!!
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